| Monday, November 20, 2006
| 11/02/06, thursday (3rd part)
|hubby went to work while i was still on SL. the OTC medicines were no help at all. finally, i've agreed to be brought to the hospital JUST for a check-up. at the back of my mind was a big problem: my major party on saturday at Ayala, Alabang! my parents were also worried and asking me if hubby and our assistants can do it without me. unfortunately NO, because i was the only one dealing with the client and hubby knows nothing about the details of the decor.
i guess this is 1 major problem when you have your own business. not like when you are employed, i can just easily text my boss and tell him that i'm not fit to work. voila, a minus to my SL and some text messages to officemates for my deliverables. but here in my business, i can never be excused! kahit na hindi na ako makatayo sa panghihina at sakit ng tyan, it's not enough reason to be excused. in the 1st place, hindi naman kasalanan ng client ko kung magkasakit ako. also, hindi dapat mag-suffer ang client ko sa sakit ko. talk about professionalism. and that was my major problem!
my dad and i went to the emergency room of World Citi again. they asked for blood and stool sample. after checking, they found out a severe case of amoebiasis! and i was asked to be confined! oh no, and the minimum would be 2 days, that would be until saturday.
so definitely, i said NO! i just asked for take home meds and preferred a "home confinement". they asked me to sign a waiver, since i didn't follow their advise. another worst problem, the antibiotics were not safe for breastfeeding! =(
i texted my pedia to ask what temporary formula can i give lil' boy while i'm on medications. she advised NanHA.
pag-uwe ko sa house, nagkulong na ako ulit sa room ng parents ko. i felt so low. super hirap na ako sa kalagayan ko, continuous pa rin ang lbm-vomit, stomach pain and no food intake. hinang-hina na ako, worried pa ako sa party ko. and then, i can't even be with my baby and worst, can't breastfeed. feeling ko, wala akong silbi. super sakit ng feeling ko, grabe. i hated amoeba, i hated burger steak and i hated MINI STOP!
side kwento why i hated Mini Stop. feeling ko talaga eh yung burger steak na kinain ko ang dumale sa akin eh. kasi after eating that, nanlamig na ako and sumakit na katawan ko. and we finally concluded it because pati yung Lab puppy na kumain ng tira ko ay nagsusuka na din after eating. so we were both sick because of that. we tried to complain but to no avail. kasi isolated case daw yung sa amin, kaya walang basis. eh haller, dalawa na nga kami nung puppy na nag-suffer noh!
anyway, i spent the night at my parent's room with them. di kasi ako pwedeng tumabi kay lil' boy dahil for sure ay mag-breastfeed yun. kaya ayun, kawawang lil' boy, iyak ng iyak. napuyat si hubby at mom ko sa pagduyan sa kanya hanggang madaling araw para lang makatulog. at napuyat din ako sa kakaiyak dahil sa nangyayari. 1st, dahil alam kong hirap si lil' boy at hinahanap ako (or breast ko to be exact, hehe). 2nd, it's my 1st time to sleep without lil' boy by my side! alam mo yun, di ako sanay talaga. for 19 months, katabi ko yun sa gabi, bigla na lang mababago without much preparation on my side. and bigla akong nag-stop mag-breastfeed. super major change! and i super hated it!
to think na ilang FREE out-of-town company outings like boracay and palawan ang pinalagpas ko dahil di ko kayang iwan ang anak ko at hindi kami sanay parehong matulog na hiwalay. tapos eto ngayon, bigla na lang naging ganun. HAY! =(
11/03/06, friday. my assistants went to our house early in the afternoon to start the balloon works. pinupuntahan na lang nila ako sa room to ask for instructions. or minsan, kapag nakaya ko, lumalabas ako to check on their works. eto pa ang kainis dun, kailangan ko pang taguan si lil' boy tuwing lalabas ako, kasi di nya ko pwedeng makita dahil sasama sa akin yun. at kapag nami-miss ko sya, sisilipin ko na lang sya sa window while he's playing sa terrace. o kaya pagmamasdan ko habang tulog sya. o di ba, what a pity!
nung gabi ay pinilit kong tumayo at gumawa ng balloon decor. yung "angel balloon standee" kasi ay ako lang ang may alam, so i had to do it. finalized everything and was able to finish around 9pm.
di ko napigilan kaya nakipaglaro muna ako kay lil' boy because i missed him sooo much. pero nung naghahanap na ulit sya ng dede and medyo sleepy na, tinakasan ko na ulit and i went back to my parent's room. same thing happened that night, iyak to death pa din sya before he fell asleep.
another problem: he didn't like to drink his milk (formula)!
|posted by apple @ 2:31 PM